Life is complicated

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At least it’s complicated at times, don’t you think?  I haven’t been doing much (anything) with my blog lately.  I’ve been working, then falling into bed when I get home trying to recover from the pain and fatigue.  My house is a wreck, my car needs cleaned, the “garden” is overrun with weeds, and I’ve not devoted much time to writing.  I don’t know what the solution is to everything else, but I’ll be doing plenty of writing next month (yes, next month really is November) when I take part in another NaNoWriMo event.

I really enjoy the NaNo writing frenzy and feel like I accomplish an unbelievable amount of writing during that 30 days.  At the end of November, I’ll likely still be hurting, my house will still be a disaster, my car will still need a trip to the car wash, but at least I’ll have another book well underway.  I’m even upping my word count goal from the 50,000 I’ve done in the past to 65,000 this year.  Am I crazy???

On the health front, I saw the rheumatologist again today.  I feel like we’re not making much progress.  She squeezed my joints (some of them harder than necessary…ouch!) and had me go through some range of motion type movements.  Then wrote out a prescription for a stronger dose of my pain meds…said to call if it gives me any problems.  Then she said she wanted to see me again in February.  It just seems to me this is all stuff my regular doctor could do.  Honestly, I’m starting to feel like I’m getting depressed because I’m not seeing any real improvement, I’m struggling to make it through the days.  I had today off work and was in so much pain that I didn’t do much of anything (why do you think my house is a mess?)

I’m trying to find a positive ray of light in all of this, but it’s pretty dim right now.

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12 Responses

  1. I don’t know if you are familiar with Dr. Brené Brown, however, I think she’s one smart woman and intuitive about many aspects of the human condition. There is a quote of hers that I like and is relatable to the challenges you are facing along with a number of us; myself included. It reads: “The two most powerful words when we’re in struggle: me too.”

    I wish you well with the ‘NaNoWriMo event’ next month. Take care….

    • Thanks, Carolyn…I am not familiar with Dr. Brown, but now you’ve got me curious…I so agree with that quote…it’s so comforting to realize that there are others who understand.

  2. Oh – wow! Thank you so much for this post! Boy oh boy can I ever relate. I’ve tried to warm up my writing by getting back to my blog, but I’m mostly just feeling pretty pooped!
    I hope you feel better soon and enjoy your month of writing!

  3. The frenzy and discipline of Nano (which I’ve never done) sounds like the compulsion I feel when I sign up for weight watchers. I MUST stay within my daily points! I’m glad you’ll do Nano. Let the house “go.”

  4. You’ve turned into a Nano professional! I can’t believe you’re upping the wordcount, too. Sorry to hear you don’t feel like you’re making much progress, healthwise. It’s easy for depression to try to get a foothold when one has to deal with pain; but don’t let it get you down. I’m pulling for you!

    • Thanks, Patti. Yeah, I’ve found NaNo to be the best thing for my writing…and I owe it all to you for introducing me to the world of NaNo. I’m so pleased with the writing I’ve done and have actually done a little planning for this next book…have always just kind of winged it before. I’m really planning on this being a book that I’ll be able to publish with a little (okay, a lot) more work once November is over.

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